So I got let go from my job today.
This has never happened to me before but seems to be happening to a lot of people in this job market. It’s kind of an interesting experience and writing has always been somewhat of a coping mechanism of mine so I figured I would blog it.
I am not going to name names or anything because that is unprofessional but I will outline how it all went down best I can remember.
9:00 Get to work as usual, open my outlook, msn etc, start preparing for my “mid year performance meeting” and going over somethings to discuss that I don’t feel were going so well the past 6 months and how we can work to improve them. At this point I am still employed.
9:30 Manager comes and gets me and we go into meeting room, I notice we are not going to our normal meeting room which didn’t strike me as odd at the time. Walk into the meeting room and I see the HR representative and the writings on the wall. This writing says “HA HA YOU’RE FUCKED”.
9:32 My manger informs me that I am being let go due to skill set incompatability, which is kind of an ego blow, I wish he said due to B.O. or something tangible as for what I was originally hired for I am very good.
9:35 My manager wishes me luck and says that he can be a reference if I so need it and leaves. I am curious about what sort of reference he would give if he sees me as under qualified but that sorta washes out with the other stuff running through my head.
The HR guy tells me some stuff about my severance package and what not. He also says that I don’t have to sign it right away and that they have a taxi chit for me since they don’t want me going home “in this state”.
“This state” stands out, what kind of state am I in? Did my hair suddenly change color? How does he know what kind of state I am in? I wonder what kind of state HE is in since he has to do this fairly often now.
9:40 A grievance/transition counselor guy comes in, and the HR guy leaves. This guy seems nice enough and offers me some services to help me get a new job. I will probably take him up on his offer since what else do I have to do now? We exchange info.
I never got up to shake his hand or anything but he never really offered either. I was actually relived as I didn’t much feel like shaking hands. So far today I have shaken zero hands.
9:45 Return to my desk and pack up my stuff, mainly headphones, ipod, Ride BMX mags, some toys, have to go back for a few more things, forgot my phone charger (no I didn’t) so I will have to go back sooner rather than later. I have to return my signed severence package also so I will do it all at the same time.
9:50 Everyone is telling me how shocked they are, not to many people knew I guess which is nice because it helps me not feel like the but end of some big joke.
I don’t really know what to say and I am having a hard time talking. I have also become aware of the fact that I am sweating pretty bad and thankful I am wearing a dark shirt so no one can notice. The old spice deodorant seems to be holding out pretty decent so it was worth the $2.49
I wander around the office a little bit looking for some of the other co workers to say goodbye too but they are in meetings so I peace out.
10:00 I call my gf, and mom but not my Dad as I don’t want to hear the time to go back to school speech right now.
My Mom says “Oh shit”. She doesn’t swear to often so that’s kind of amusing. I have brief conversations with them about new beginnings and what not while I sorta walk aimlessly down the street half heart-ed-ly hailing cabs as I go.
10:15 I am off the phone now and some dude asks me how my day is going, surprising even myself, I answer him with “Been better you?”. He replies saying He is good thanks for asking and I notice he is carrying a hat with a brain sticking out of it. Is he some sort of a zombie?
Turns out it’s Jerry The Brain Guy, and yes, he is kind of a zombie since he died twice due to a head injury and now has a company based around that and writes books. He also invented some kind of thing that helps you learn better. It’s all pretty crazy and he has a bunch of youtube videos if you want to check it out.
He asks me what I want to do and I tell him that, ideally, I would have a successful action sports store and it would be awesome.
He tells me a bit more about his lifes story and says that the only thing standing in the way of my dreams really is myself and that if I need anything to contact him. Thats kind of neat, normally I don’t talk to people on the street and this guy had an interesting story and didn’t charge me any money to hear it.
10:20 I finally get a cab ask the dude if he is ok with going to Mississauga, he says yes and get in. Once in he see’s my taxi chit and tells me to go to the guy in front of him. For the first time since I got ‘let go’ I am angry. Fuck dude if you didn’t want me as a fare you should have said no!
10:21 Get in the other cab, this one smells so I crack the window and I am on the way home.
10:45 I Realize my cars at the Go station and I told him home so I give the cab driver the worst directions to get there. I am in a haze at this point so it’s a bit hard to navigate someone who doesn’t know the area I really just want to tell him he is a cab driver get a damn GPS.
However my old companies picking up the bill though so I am not stressing over the cost.
10:50 I am filling out the taxi chit, seriously don’t want to be doing this and I’m annoyed going on angry now. I hate taxis and I just want to go home.
I have actually been writing this blog most of the ride home in my head and filling out the time and date of the pick up is screwing up my thought process.
10:55 I yell to the cabby yo ho smell ya later.
11:00 Hop in my whip (well mine as long as I can keep paying for it) and drive home.
11:30 Start writing this blog and thinking about what to do with the rest of the day. BMX seems approrpriate given the weather and my new abundance of time but I feel sorta shaky like I couldn’t actually ride right now I am pretty tired and somewhat shaky, I sort of feel similar to after a hard work out at the gym or something.